Drown

I wish I could drown my sorrow. However, the waters are unpredictable. Today the emptiness inside of me swelled and my heart ached as it use to. I hate it. I dont want to feel this anymore this horrible emptiness that I don't know how to fill. It terrifies me because I don't want to be empty, I dont want to need to be fixed. I don't want to cry anymore because of the lack of that something. It's frustrating and it makes me over think.
They say that depression is hereditary. .. if that's true maybe I shouldn't have a family. Save them from this. This nothingness.