Jitters

11-5
What is this beating in my chest? It's so warm. I'm jittery, my pulse races, and my heart is skipping beats. Every time my phone buzzes I hope it's you. Every time I see you, I'm like a puppy, I cant help but be happy. Butterflies fill me just by thinking about you. I just wanted to be friends but my actions, nor my mind, listened to my wearing heart. They did the exact opposite in fact. How long has it been since I've craved something like this? This overwhelmingly haunting feeling. This melting of the ice on my soul.
How I wish I weren't so afraid to tell him how much I do like him. However, it seems way too soon. I dont want him to run away, so I will keep my mouth shut and hope for the best. Hope no one else comes along and steals him away. However, if it does happen I will at least spare myself thr heartache of rejection.  He knows that I like him, but I doubt he knows the extent of it. I don't even know how it happened, but here I am thinking of him. Wishing he were texting me.
I can't get him out of my head.  I'd forgotten what it's truely like to have a crush. Maybe this is it? But I shall keep my feelings to myself.
He is an amazing person. I hope he lives his dreams and doesn't let anyone or anything hold him back. He has a warrior's spirit.