Time

Only time can tell what will become of this thing we have, or lack thereof. I'm really unsure of the whole situation. I'm trying to prepare myself for the day you say that it won't work and you found someone better, but I couldn't ever prepare myself enough. Not under these circumstances.
I just want to hold your hand. I just want to hold you in general, play with your hair, kiss you when I want to... but I dont want to push you away farther than I already have. If I make a move, surely this will crumble to dust. You'll slip through my fingers as water does. I just can't bring myself to be brave and ask for your kiss. The most I can bring myself to do is try to hold your hand, but most of the time I feel rejected and return my hands to a fidgety position, and act like it wasn't anything.
I don't feel pretty. Especially when I really try, and do my make up. When I actually spend time going through my clothes and trying to find something eye catching or at least good looking, it goes without a second glance it seems. I'm slowly becoming more self conscious. You are so attractive, you could have anyone you want. I know there are people better for you than me, but I would do anything for you. However, if you are happy... that all that matters. I would take all the sadness and pain in the world to see that. Because I don't really think about my happiness. I care about others way too much for that.
I miss you. All the time. But I can't say that. But I really hope that we can figure this out.
SinsCatastrophe
I'll fight for you, I'll fight for me
And everything that we could be
All I want to hear you say
Is that I make you feel the same